Saturday, January 2, 2016

Happy New Year

It's a new year. It's time to make those goals and pray that you can stick to them. I don't like to make New Year's resolutions. I usually end up breaking them. However, I have a lot of improving to do and I think that this is a good time to start.

I have been overweight all of my life. I have lost a good amount of weight twice in my adult life. I ALWAYS end up gaining weight back (plus some). Well, I am at my all time high. I currently weigh 80 pounds more than I did on my wedding day almost 10 years ago. 80 pounds. That's like an entire short person. Lol. I don't fit in most of my clothes in my closet. In fact, I steal hoodies from Mike because they fit and they cover me. I always want to be covered. It's alright in the winter, but it is impossible to be covered in the summer. Speaking of that, I have to worry about that earlier this year...well at least that type of weather. In 80 days we get on a plane to go to Mexico for my SIL's destination wedding. I have been telling myself for about 5 months that I need to lose weight so I can enjoy Mexico. If I don't then I will be super self conscious and covering myself up as much as I can. Who wants to constantly worry about what others think of them. The funny thing is that people don't really care. I care more than they do.

Today I had Mike take pictures of me where I was in the same pose that I was when I got down to 149 pounds in 2009. I tried to talk myself into posting those pictures, but I just can't. They are terrible and I look stupid. Maybe when I lose some weight, I will be able to talk myself into it. Since in reality, that is me right now, I just can't get myself to share those pictures. Here are the original pictures goal.

I wasn't perfect, but I was happy and I felt good about myself. I want to be that person again. I want to not dread getting dressed for the day because nothing in my closet fits.

This morning I committed to Girls on the Run at school. I will be assisting our librarian, who is an avid runner, with the program at our school. The program is for 5th grade girls and I think it is important to have a 5th grade teacher as a coach as well. We will train the girls to be able to run a 5k and then in May (I believe), we will run a 5k with them. I am really excited to be a part of GOTR. With that being said, I will be starting the C25K program today.

These are my goals for this year:
1. Get back to a healthy weight.
2. Pay down debt.
3. Put a good amount in savings.
4. Move into a bigger house.

We may not make all of our goals this year, but we WILL get there eventually. I hope everyone has a new year filled with nothing but positivity and happiness.

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