Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Goodbye 2014, Hello 2015!!!

This year has been an amazing year for us. It started off not so good, but as the year progressed, it got way better. In January, we had our first frozen embryo transfer that resulted in a negative pregnancy test in February. We were pretty upset. We had transferred two perfect embryos for the second time and still were not blessed with a pregnancy. How could that be?! After that, the emotional and physical toll that infertility was putting on me was just too much. We decided to take a break for several months while I focused on myself. In February, I weighed in at 217 pounds. My highest weight EVER. I started training to run a 5k in March an dropped about 20 pounds by the end of May. At the beginning of June, I ran my first 5K with my hubby and his family. After that, I fell off some. I gained back almost 10 pounds. At the end of July, we had our 2nd fresh IVF cycle and I interviewed for a 5th grade teaching position in the district that I was an aide in. On August 1st, I was offered the teaching position and on August 6th, we found out that we are pregnant. Two things that I had been hoping for, praying for, and dreaming of happened within such a short time of one another. In September, we traded in my hubby's cruddy car and got a Ford Edge to fit our growing family. In October, we took a trip to the lake with some friends and family. Later that month, my niece, Ally, arrived. The year is ending on a sad note though. My sister (my best friend) and her husband have packed up their belongings and taken my niece and nephew to live in Texas. They arrived at their new, gorgeous home yesterday. I am very happy for them and their new beginning, but also very sad that she is so very far away and that I won't see her much anymore.

I also have an aunt that is in hospice care and is not expected to make it even another week. She is the sweetest lady and it really sucks that our family is losing yet another wonderful person. See, that's what sucks about big families. My parents are both 1 of 10 children. That means I have 9 aunts and uncles on each side....and their spouses....which gives me 36 aunts and uncles total (at least before they started passing away). My dad's side is also very prone to getting cancer, so it seems like we are always losing someone...whether it be an aunt, uncle, or cousin. It's been rough.

As crappy as this year is ending, I really look forward to 2015. As scared as I am to give birth, I cannot wait until little man arrives. We have been waiting so long for this.

After reading blogs today, I realized that I usually don't do any end of the year posts recapping the year and talking about how the next year with hopefully be "our year". I realize that so many do. It is tough to be optimistic sometimes, but there really is so much hope for each and every year. We have 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days, 8,765.812 hours, 525,948.766 minutes, and 31,556,925 seconds to make our years count. Dream big and NEVER give up on your dreams. We came extremely close to doing that this year. If we had, we wouldn't be expecting our little miracle in April! Make this year COUNT, ladies (and gentlemen)!

Enjoy your New Year's Eve parties. I'm still feeling pretty cruddy with this sinus infection, so I think we'll be staying in tonight. I do have some sparkling grape juice to replace my Moscato, but I'm not sure if I'll be up to even drinking it tonight!



Friday, December 26, 2014

The First Week of Winter Break

I hope everyone had a very WONDERFUL Christmas. Mine was probably the worst Christmas that I've ever experienced (and it really wasn't THAT bad). 

We'll start with last Friday night (the 19th). I got off of work and came home to these beautiful flowers and a little note from my husband welcoming me to winter break. :) He's so sweet.

On Saturday, we had my dad's side of the family party where we finally had an update for my cousin to read (she does the family newsletter). We mentioned my job and the fact that we are due in April with our little baby boy. Saturday night was pretty fun. I got to spend time with my family including my adorable nephews, Lukas and Nate, and my niece, Ally (when she wasn't sleeping).

On to Monday (the beginning of my winter break). Monday was great! I spent time with my sister, Kristy, and nephew, Nate, at the Chicago Botanic Garden. I started to get the sniffles and a little bit of a runny nose while we were there. I blamed it on the cruddy wet weather.

When I got home, I had a package from my BFF, Amy, waiting outside the door. When Mike got home, we opened it. It is a beautiful ornament to document our pregnancy this Christmas.

 Tuesday I woke up and was stuffy and had body aches. I cleaned in the morning and shortly after, I regretted pushing myself that far. Later that night, we met up with Mike's mom, her boyfriend, my SIL, and her boyfriend at a nursing home that houses the lovely Gramma Guimond. Gramma Guimond is the mother of Mike's step father who we ADORED. He passed away in 2006 (a few months after our wedding) and his sister passed away that year too. Gramma Guimond only has grand children and great grandchildren left. We are a bonus extension of her family. Anyways, we haven't seen her in a couple years, so we made a date for Tuesday night to spend time with her. She is the sweetest old lady ever and she is very witty. It was great catching up with her. I got to tell her about my teaching job and we told her about Jordan. Well, we gave her an ornament that I made that said, "Wonderful Grammas Get Promoted to Great Grammas" on one side and "Arriving April 2015: Jordan Chase" on the other side. When my MIL read it to her, she got the biggest smile and congratulated us. We also found out that Jordan is due the day before her 94th birthday. We had a nice time, but we did notice that she is forgetting things. We would talk about something and then later on she would say the same thing or ask the same question...she forgot that we already talked about it. I lasted about 3 hours that night. I was really ready to go after 2 hours, but I didn't want to cut our time short. We got home and I had forgotten to throw out a bag of garbage and the dogs had ripped open the bag and there was garbage everywhere. They ate anything that they could get their paws on...including a bag of cocoa mix that a student gave me (which had stale marhsmallows). The kitchen and living room were a mess. I cried like crazy. Both pissed at myself for not running the garbage out when we left and pissed at them for making a mess. There was cocoa powder all over the floor, so after we cleaned up the mess, Mike cleaned the carpet. Not the way we wanted to spend our night.

On Wednesday (Christmas Eve), I woke up feeling MISERABLE. I decided to stay home and let Mike go to the family party alone. I could tell that he was disappointed, but he understood. He left at 11am and I laid in bed and put on the Veronica Mars marathon on Pivot. I thought for sure it would cheer me up. At 12:20pm I blew my nose and sat up and got a sudden rush of energy and felt good enough that I decided to get ready and drive the 45 minutes to the family party and surprise everyone. That I did. Mike was so thrilled to see me. He told me that I could return his Christmas present, because that was the best gift that I could've given him. :) Everyone was so happy to see me. That would've been the 1st Christmas Eve in 12 Christmas's that we have spent together that I would've missed on that side of the family. It was a really nice time. Although, once again, I lasted about 4 hours and then started feeling cruddy again. We came home and this time the dogs had pulled a bag of candy canes off of the kitchen table and got the packages open. The packages contained 24 candy canes. There were about 7 left (in bits and pieces). Most of the candy canes and wrappers were gone. I cried again. After we cleaned up, we exchanged gifts between us and the dogs. It has been a few years since we exchanged gifts. I had to quite my job at the end of 2011 to student teach and then I just worked as a teacher's aide for two school years and hardly made anything. Mike was in the electricians union and was usually laid off in the winter, so we decided that it would be better to not spend the extra money. We always get the dogs a joint gift (like one of those cheap stockings with cheap toys inside). This year they got a Holiday Stew w/ a decorated cookie, a plush squeaky toy, and one of those bones with a flavor filling in the middle. They were in heaven. This year we spoiled each other. I got him the 5th season of Breaking Bad (he wanted it and it was only $7.99 on a deal on Amazon, so how could I pass that up?) and I got him a Chicago Blackhawks Personalized jersey. He got me a gift certificate for a mani/pedi with a no chip coat that should last about a month. He also got me a gift certificate to get a prenatal massage. I am waiting a little bit to use both of them. I know at some point I am going to NEED those done to me and now does not feel like the right time. :)

Later that night, daddy read Jordan and bedtime story. He read The Night Before Christmas to him. :) It was such sweet family time.

Yesterday (Christmas day), I woke up feeling so incredibly stuffy and had what appeared to be pink eye. Oh boy. I was NOT going to miss Christmas, so I sucked it up. I had learned my lesson from the previous two days and anything edible was put up high before we on top of the refrigerator high. We went to my MIL's house for Christmas breakfast...and I was so stuffed up that I could not taste a thing. :/ Boo. Then we opened presents. We left after about 4 hours and had planned on going home for a little bit to let the dogs out and then heading to my parents house. Well, that didn't go as planned. First....with a little back sister, BIL, and their son and daughter are moving to Texas. They are leaving on Sunday. Yesterday was to be the last day that I could spend with them before they move. I found out while I was at my MIL's that my brother in law was worried about me getting the kids sick before their trip. They have a couple day trip down there and they have no doctor for the kids yet. I could understand where he was coming from. I had planned on spending the day with my family and just keeping my distance from the kids. Well, that wasn't going to work. He told my sister that he would bring the kids to his mom's house. I was not okay with that. This is the last time that my parents will have to spend with them for a little while. I didn't want to cut their time short with them, so I said that I would just not come. Well, that hurt. The thought of not seeing my family on Christmas for the first time EVER! On top of that I was going to miss spending my last time with my sister and kids before they move! I was an emotional wreck. Pregnancy hormones don't help and I'm even crying as I type this. Oh boy. Anyways, Mike and I went home, grabbed the presents, and took the dogs on a car ride to my parent's house. We stopped at my brother's on the way to open gifts from them (theirs were already at my parents). My SIL is a nurse and told me that I am not contagious and that it was probably sinus issues from the Chicago Botanic Gardens. She said that it is not pink eye, but just the sinus issue going up into my eye. I wasn't about to tell my sister that, because I just wanted to drop it. If they rather that I not be there, then so be it. So, we left my brother's house, went to my parents, hugged my mom and dad, got our gifts, gave them our gifts, and my sister walked us out to the car. I only got to wave to my niece and nephew on the way out, but I gave my sister a great big hug and cried my eyes out. I cried on the way home a few times. Lets face it. Every time I think about them leaving, I cry. Like right now. Ok.....on to the rest of the night. My SIL said that I should be able to take Sudafed. She tried looking it up in her books to make sure that I can, but she ended up calling Labor & Delivery at the hospital that she works at and they said that I can take the 12 hour regular Sudafed. So, we stopped at Walgreens to pick some up. 

When we got home, we gave the pups their Holiday Stew that we bought for them for Christmas and then their decorated cookie for dessert. 
Mike made a frozen pizza and I had some Chicken Corn Chowder soup and we watched TV. Later on, my brother, SIL, and nephew, Lukas, stopped by to drop off Christmas dinner and they stayed a little while and spent some time with us. It was nice being able to spend some time with some of my own family members on Christmas. I appreciated that they cared enough to stay.

Today is the day after Christmas and it is supposed to be a high of 49 degrees here in Illinois. It does not feel like Christmas. Not much about this week has felt like Christmas to me. I sure look forward to next Christmas. I need to make sure that I stay healthy for my little man's FIRST Christmas. I hope it is cold and snowy and white. :) I've already started planning for next year. I woke up this morning and started buying stuff online (Christmas clearance). I bought beautiful wrapping paper from Pier 1 and a cookie tray and milk mug for Santa from Personalization Mall. I also got a cute sign for out front for us to take pictures by. :) I so look forward to Christmas next year.

Even though it was not his first Christmas this year, he sure was spoiled....

Blanket, Under Armour jumpsuit, and Jordan socks and booties for our little Jordan
From, Auntie Jeanette and Uncle Sean
From, Gramma G and Gary
Dr. Seuss books and Book Buggee
From, Uncle Eric, Auntie Mindy, and Lukas
Frames for the pics above his crib (they match the bump board...or his future
memory board
From, Auntie Kristy, Uncle Jason, Nate and Ally

Clothes and teddy bear
From, Gramma C and Grandpapa C

I hope everyone had a fantastic Christmas. As much as mine sucked, it could've been worse, so I'll count my blessings and hope for a better one next year!

Thursday, December 25, 2014


Merry Christmas from the Neubauers!
We want to wish everyone safe and happy holidays and we hope that 2015 brings you everything that you have hoped, dreamed, and prayed for! XOXO

Monday, December 22, 2014

Week 24 Bumpdate

Bump Update

How far along? 24 weeks

Total weight gain: Up 17 pounds. That is way too much. I have been more cautious of what I have been eating since that doctor's appointment. :/
Maternity clothes: I’m mainly wearing all maternity tops and pants now.

Stretch marks: Unfortunately they have been there since I was younger seeing as though I have struggled with my weight all of my life.
Sleep: I've been sleeping pretty well. I wake up and have to pee about every hour and a half to three hours.

Best moment this week: Hearing his heartbeat on Wednesday after him having a few very inactive days.

Miss anything? Wine
Food cravings: Everything. That's my problem. I don't know how to tell myself no!

Anything making you queasy or sick? Nope.

Gender: BOY!!!!

Symptoms: I'm peeing a lot more. My chest is getting WAY bigger. Starting to get sciatic nerve pains and some lower back pains. Other than that, I'm great!
Belly button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On...but not for long. :(

Happy or moody most of the time: When I am at work I am moody. When I am home, I am happy, but oh so tired. I don't think this will change. I am thinking that I'll be happy for the next 2 weeks since I am on Christmas break! :)
Looking forward to: Celebrating Christmas with the bump! :)

Sunday, December 21, 2014

Quick Update for Week 22 & 23

 I have been slacking on updates thanks to my job that keeps me super busy. Luckily, I am on break for the next 15 days, so I will have more time to update with future weeks. For now, here are photos for week 22 and 23. 24 weeks is tomorrow.

The scale at the doctor's office confirmed that I am gaining too much too fast (up 17 lbs), so I need to start watching what I am eating! Really, the only update that I have is that little man has been very inactive since last Sunday, but his heart rate was 160bpm on Wednesday when we saw the doctor. Maybe he is just exhausted since momma has been exhausted and sick all week.

 I'll post the 24 week update tomorrow! Have a great Sunday, ladies!!!

Saturday, December 6, 2014

New Nursery Items

As some of you may remember, in January (right before our FET), I was positive that we would be pregnant soon. I thought for sure that the FET was going to result in a pregnancy, so I decided to get a head start on the nursery. I cleared out one of our extra rooms and painted the boring off white walls two different shades of gray and even did a blog post about it. :) I was so excited to be able to finally start on our nursery after dreaming about it for several years.

Well, the FET in January did not result in a pregnancy and we were devastated. I wondered if I would ever be able to decorate a nursery. Then in August (after our 2nd IVF fresh cycle), our dreams came true. Since then we have been planning, purchasing, and decorating a little at a time. This is what's in the nursery so far. 


Mike and I purchased the bookcase from Babies R Us because we already had some decorations and books that were taking up space in the closet. My MIL and her fiance purchased the glider/ottoman for us. My parents will be buying us the crib and they are going to go in with us on getting the dresser. The dresser doubles as a changing table. I love the set because it is mainly white with gray accents. It goes perfectly with the color scheme. :) The room seemed like such a good size until we started putting furniture in it. I think that everything will fit nicely in the room though.

Week 21 Bumpdate

Bump Update

How far along? 21 weeks on12/1

Total weight gain: 9 pounds at my last appointment on November 19th.
Maternity clothes: I’m mainly wearing all maternity tops and pants.

Stretch marks: Unfortunately they have been there since I was younger seeing as though I have struggled with my weight all of my life.
Sleep: I've been sleeping pretty well. I am still waking up to pee about every hour and a half to two hours.
 Best moment this week: We got to see him twice on Thursday. We had the anatomy scan and then we went back to the Belly Factory for a recheck to get better face pictures. Here's one. :)
3D/4D pictures are creepy, but I just love his little nose, lips, and chin! :)
Miss anything? Wine

Food cravings: Sweets, like usual.

Anything making you queasy or sick? Nope.

Gender: BOY!!!!

Symptoms: Peeing a lot more and I'm always exhausted! That's pretty much it though. I did blow my nose early this week and my belly hurt right by my belly button. I was told that it is the muscles stretching. Luckily it didn't last long.
Belly button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On...but I don't think for much longer. :(

Happy or moody most of the time: When I am at work I am moody. When I am home, I am happy, but oh so tired. I don't think this will change.
Looking forward to: My next appointment when I get to hear his heartbeat again. It's my favorite sound. :)