Tuesday, July 15, 2014

What Could Have Been....

Yesterday would have been our due date HAD our first IVF cycle resulted in a pregnancy. Instead I was nervous as hell and interviewing for a teaching position. I HATE interviews. I would've rather have been having a baby. Really though. I'm pretty sure that I won't get it and a part of me is ok with that. Sure...we need the money, but I sometimes wonder if I really WANT to teach or if it is just something that I jumped into while desperate to find a career path. I often wish that I would have just stayed in the office job that I had and not accrued damn near $50,000 in student loans. I was really good at what I did and the customers loved me. Ugh. Too late now. They don't rehire past employees.

I was in a nasty funk after that interview. See.

 
Anyways, today has been a better day. The pups and I took a 3.5 mile walk this morning and then spent some time on the front porch just enjoying the cool breeze with some coffee and a good book. It was about 60 degrees this morning with only a high of 70 today. Gotta love cool days in July.
 


I was pretty much stuck at home today. I had to be here to sign for my Crinone that the pharmacy sent me. So, after some relaxation time, I decided to finally hang the curtains in the future nursery (or whatever room it becomes in the future). I still have to iron them, but I am saving that for another day.


Anyways...today is day 5 of stims. I am injecting 225 units a night of Gonal-F. I am liking Gonal-F more than Follistem. The dialup pen doesn't turn as it undials, so it seems much easier to use. Tomorrow morning I go in for monitoring. I hope I have lots of eggs growing.

 

11 comments:

Ashley Sanderson said...

praying for lots of eggs to be growing!!!!

Infertile625 said...

Grow eggies grow! Good luck on your job interview!

Aubrey said...

Hoping for lots of follicles and I'm loving those curtains!!

JoJo said...

Sending positives vibes that u have lots of follicles growing!

The Run Away Stork said...

Thinking positive thoughts and saying prayers for fabulous news tomorrow!

Mr. Thompson and Me said...

Fingers crossed!

(Love the curtains too.)

Amie said...

We would have been about a month apart then. Thinking of you today :) Can't wait to hear how your monitoring appointment goes!! I hope to start my crinone sometime next week. The way our stories intertwine is crazy, praying these cycles are the ones for us!

shay said...

ooh good book! hoping you get lots of follies tomorrow!

Caroline said...

Hope your appt goes great!!

Caroline said...

Hope your appt goes great!!! Come on eggies!

Laura said...

Come on, eggs! I always thought that Follistim pen was awkward too...glad the gonal-f is better.