Yesterday would have been our due date HAD our first IVF cycle resulted in a pregnancy. Instead I was nervous as hell and interviewing for a teaching position. I HATE interviews. I would've rather have been having a baby. Really though. I'm pretty sure that I won't get it and a part of me is ok with that. Sure...we need the money, but I sometimes wonder if I really WANT to teach or if it is just something that I jumped into while desperate to find a career path. I often wish that I would have just stayed in the office job that I had and not accrued damn near $50,000 in student loans. I was really good at what I did and the customers loved me. Ugh. Too late now. They don't rehire past employees.
I was in a nasty funk after that interview. See.
Anyways, today has been a better day. The pups and I took a 3.5 mile walk this morning and then spent some time on the front porch just enjoying the cool breeze with some coffee and a good book. It was about 60 degrees this morning with only a high of 70 today. Gotta love cool days in July.
I was pretty much stuck at home today. I had to be here to sign for my Crinone that the pharmacy sent me. So, after some relaxation time, I decided to finally hang the curtains in the future nursery (or whatever room it becomes in the future). I still have to iron them, but I am saving that for another day.
Anyways...today is day 5 of stims. I am injecting 225 units a night of Gonal-F. I am liking Gonal-F more than Follistem. The dialup pen doesn't turn as it undials, so it seems much easier to use. Tomorrow morning I go in for monitoring. I hope I have lots of eggs growing.