Thursday, February 6, 2014

Fear

Tomorrow is my beta. I have NEVER been so scared to get the pregnancy done at my clinic. I think my biggest fear is receiving that phone call in the afternoon. I so badly want to hear the words "You're pregnant," but all I ever hear is that the test came back negative. Sometimes I feel like I will never get the chance to hear the words that I want to hear.

So many IVFers seem to see two lines on their HPT starting at 5dp5dt. So, I decided to POAS starting on Tuesday (5dp5dt). I've done it every day and I am still only getting one line. I'm not even seeing a hint of a second one. I have talked to other bloggers who have told me that they did not see the second line before their beta at the clinic, so I am trying not to lose hope.


Regardless of the outcome, I am not giving up! My new insurance covers 4 fresh IVF cycles and as many FET's as we need! I will use them up if I have to (although I hope that I don't need to)!


11 comments:

Non Sequitur Chica said...

Wishing you the best of luck at your beta tomorrow! My dr said not to ake any pregnancy tests until beta day because they aren't accurate.

Caroline said...

Hold on to that hope girl!!! Hope it goes well tomorrow. Let us know!

Amanda said...

Ughh! So sorry! The wait for the beta is always so miserable! Hang in there! Thinking of you and wishing you the best!

Sausha said...

Good luck!! I'll be thinking of you guys tomorrow! :D

JoJo said...

I'm so sorry u have that fear. My clinic got mad that I tested early and even went as far to say hpt aren't accurate. Wishing for the best tomorrow.

Amie said...

You are in my prayers today!!

Mrs. Lost said...

Best of luck! And wow, your insurance is amazing!! I have no coverage and we sure are paying for it.

Lisa said...

Hold onto hope! I am praying and hoping for the best tomorrow. I love your positive outlook.

Elisha Kearns said...

Praying for you girl but KNOW that you WILL hear those words "you re pregnant!" one day....or better yet, you might not hear the words because you will surprisingly find out you are pregnant all on your own!! You won't need a nurse to tell you! That happened to my friend. She was scheduled to start her second round of IVF with at FET but realized she hadn't started her cycle yet. She was cleaning out the bathroom and found an old pregnancy test and decided to use it...after three minutes, she went back to check out (not expecting ANYTHING) and instead found out she was indeed prego all on her own. Her first child came through IVF but not the second :) She is excited to say the least!! Prayers for you girl! Keep hoping! God has big plans for you! xoxox

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The Run Away Stork said...

Praying for good result today! Keeping you in my prayers!

Ashley Sanderson said...

I know that fear and pray that you receive good news and I'm glad my story helped give you some hope!