Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Happy Birthday to Me!

♪♫♫♪♪♫ Today is my birthday! Na na na na na na na na! Happy birthday to me! ♪♫♫♪♪♫

Happy birthday to my sweet blogger friend, Amie @ Is it time yet?, as well!


Sunday, February 23, 2014

It's Break Time

Mike and I decided to take a break from fertility treatments until later this year. It was a tough decision, but I think it is the right decision for us. All of the hormones being pumped into my body and the monthly disappointments are beginning to be really hard on me. We just need a break from it all.

With that being said, I decided to use these months to focus on getting my body to a healthy state. I have always struggled with my weight. I do not eat healthy and I do not exercise on a regular basis. This needs to change. In 2003 I lost 30 pounds on the Atkins Diet. I gained it back. In 2009 I lost 30 pounds by eating under 1000 calories a day and exercising. I gained it back plus some. For once I would actually like to lose it and keep it off! Mike and I have decided to start eating healthier together. It is always easier when we do things together. We are guilty of ordering food and having it delivered a few time a week. Of course it's unhealthy and expensive and it needs to stop.

Last week I planned on having a service guy out to fix my treadmill. He called before he headed over and we discussed what might be wrong with it. He pretty much told me that it was going to cost probably between $200-$300 to have him out and to fix the machine. With it being 9 years old, he mentioned that after 10 years the parts are no longer available. So, if anything else happened we would be out of luck. We decided to get another treadmill. Dick's Sporting Goods has one for $500, so we just decided to go that route. We purchased it yesterday and I have the job of putting it together today. Yay...not.

I think I am going to use my baby bump board to do weekly or bi-weekly pictures of my weight loss. As embarrassed as I am about my weight, I don't really want to post the pics, but I think that it may help me stay motivated. At this time I had hoped to be taking weekly bump pics of my belly growing, but I think it might be almost as exciting to take weekly pics of it shrinking. ;)

Saturday, February 15, 2014

Menstrual From H - E - Double Hockey Sticks

If this week hasn’t been bad enough, we can add an evil heavier than usual menstrual cycle to it. Let me start out by explaining that in the 19 years of having periods, I have had mild cramps once. Late last week I was getting cramps. I was hoping that it was a sign that I was pregnant, and surprised when I found out on Monday that I wasn’t pregnant. Yesterday I started having major lower back pains. I have been laying on a heating pad a lot, which temporarily relieves the pain. After doing some research, I figured out why my lower back is hurting so badly.
 From the article: PMS Problem:Why Your Back Hurts and How to Get Relief 

Lower back pain during your period, or primary dysmenorrhea, is caused by contractions in the uterus. Every month your body build ups a thick uterine lining (called endometrium) in preparation for a fertilized egg. If you don't become pregnant, estrogen and progesterone levels drop and cue your body to break down and detach the lining, and it does that by contracting. If your uterus contracts too strongly, it can press on nearby blood vessels, cutting off the supply of oxygen to the nearby muscles, which is the reason pain occurs in the abdomen and radiates to the lower back and even to the thighs.

Chances are if you've always had similar menstrual discomfort, it's nothing to worry about. But see a doctor if you're incapacitated for more than a few days a month or if you've noticed a sudden change in your symptoms. Meanwhile, you can ease the back pain with over-the-counter anti-inflammatory drugs such as ibuprofen, or with a warm bath or a heating pad. Avoiding foods that contain caffeine and salt can also help. And even though you have about as much energy as it takes to plop onto the couch, women who exercise regularly often experience less menstrual pain so keep up with your routine by doing some light cardio or these cramp-relieving yoga poses.

I wonder if it has something to do with all of the estrogen pills and progesterone injections I’ve been doing. Maybe my body isn’t used to the high levels that I was pumping into my body for weeks. Anyone else have these back pains after infertility procedures?

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

FET #1 = BFN

I'm sorry that I haven't posted about the test yet. It was negative. When I talked with my nurse, she said that as long as AF arrives this week, then we can get me on the schedule for a March IVF fresh cycle. She also informed me that my doctor, Dr. Rodgers, is leaving the practice. I am pretty upset about this, but I got on the phone with the clinic and scheduled an appointment with Dr. Brasch. He did my last hysteroscopy and my first embryo transfer. He is a nice guy, but I've always felt most comfortable dealing with women when it comes to that area of my body. Anywho, I'm doing ok. Really. Monday night was hard and yesterday Mike and I were in sour moods, but today has been alright. We're just taking it one day at a time.

Friday, February 7, 2014

FET Cycle - First Beta

I got a call tonight from my nurse at Chicago-IVF. She started with "I think we are going to have you retest on Monday." It's not the words that I wanted to hear, but it is better than hearing that the test was negative right off the bat! The test did come back negative, but  my nurse thinks that we may have tested too early! They usually test FET patients 12 days after the transfer and it has only been 9 days! She said that my progesterone and estrogen are still pretty high and that if I wasn't pregnant then those numbers should be going down! For now I am going to keep taking the estrogen pills and the PIO shots and I am scheduled to go back in on Monday at 6am! We will know for sure on Monday night weather or not this round worked! We still have a little bit of hope! :)

Thursday, February 6, 2014


Tomorrow is my beta. I have NEVER been so scared to get the pregnancy done at my clinic. I think my biggest fear is receiving that phone call in the afternoon. I so badly want to hear the words "You're pregnant," but all I ever hear is that the test came back negative. Sometimes I feel like I will never get the chance to hear the words that I want to hear.

So many IVFers seem to see two lines on their HPT starting at 5dp5dt. So, I decided to POAS starting on Tuesday (5dp5dt). I've done it every day and I am still only getting one line. I'm not even seeing a hint of a second one. I have talked to other bloggers who have told me that they did not see the second line before their beta at the clinic, so I am trying not to lose hope.

Regardless of the outcome, I am not giving up! My new insurance covers 4 fresh IVF cycles and as many FET's as we need! I will use them up if I have to (although I hope that I don't need to)!

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

My Weekly Bump Board

I realize that I may be able to use it in several weeks, I may have to wait months or years, or I may never get to use it, but I decided to find myself a project for the 2WW (well...really 9 day wait). I first saw the chalkboards for the weekly bump pics when my sister-in-law was pregnant. I'm sure they saw the idea on Pinterest and my brother made an awesome board for them to use. Now it is all the craze! 

I thought about doing an entire chalkboard wall, but I didn't want to room to be too dark. So, I decide that I too wanted a framed chalkboard to hang on the wall. I was looking on Etsy and found magnetic chalk boards! I thought that would be such a good idea because then I could use the chalkboard as a memo board by using magnets to pin stuff on it. I can then hang it on the wall above the baby dresser. So, these magnetic chalkboards were extremely expensive on Etsy for a large board that I wanted. We're talking $200-$300. Really?!?

So, I went on Pinterest and typed in "magnetic chalkboard" where I found a blog post about how to make your own. I ordered the items and Mike and I put it together this past weekend. Isn't it cute?

If you are interested in making one for yourself, read below.
The items needed:
1. 24 in. x 36 in. White Picture/Poster Frame from - $43.99
2. 24 in. x 36 in. Galvanized Steel Flat Sheet from - $9.34
3. Black Krylon Chalkboard Aerosol Spray Paint from - $8.79
How to put it together:

Use a sander on one side of the sheet metal. The chalkboard spray will
hold better if it is scratched up some.
Apply two coats of chalkboard spray paint to sanded side.
Let dry 15 minutes between coats and after 2nd coat.
Place the sheet metal in frame and enjoy!
It was super easy to make and it sure beats spending hundreds of dollars on something that I could make for about $60! I'm sure if you go to a craft store like Hobby Lobby or Michaels, then you could probably find a frame cheaper...especially when they have their 50% off sales! :)

Anyways, I realize that it seems crazy that I made a weekly bump board when I don't even know that I am pregnant, but then again maybe not. I did recently paint the nursery. ;)

P.S. Wait until it is nice outside (we didn't because of the snow) and apply the spray paint outside. Our dumb butts had to wipe down walls and clean the carpets (that we had just cleaned). :/