Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Do We Tell or Don't We?


Not that I agree, I just thought it was funny. :)
I will not pee on a stick.
I will not pee on a stick.
I will not pee on a stick.

As much as I want to, I am really afraid of getting a BFP and getting my hopes up just to have them shattered on Monday with a BFN. I have read that:

A positive pregnancy test which later becomes negative can happen because of two reasons:
•    Chemical pregnancy – your embryo tried to implant , but failed to successfully embed into the lining.
•    The HCG shot which you took for triggering ovulation was still in your body and the pregnancy test detected this HCG , which is why you got a false positive result! This can stay in your system until 2 to 3 weeks after the shot.
Fertility treatment: If you receive shots of hCG or gonadotropins (for example, Pregynl, Profasi, Pergonal, APL) for ovulation it's posible to have a positive urine or blood pregnancy test for two to three weeks after the shot and not be pregnant. A rising blood hCG level usually indicates a pregnancy. - See more at: http://www.babymed.com/pregnancy-testing/false-positive-pregnancy-test-result#sthash.Gg2BbCk3.dpuf
Fertility treatment: If you receive shots of hCG or gonadotropins (for example, Pregynl, Profasi, Pergonal, APL) for ovulation it's posible to have a positive urine or blood pregnancy test for two to three weeks after the shot and not be pregnant. A rising blood hCG level usually indicates a pregnancy. - See more at: http://www.babymed.com/pregnancy-testing/false-positive-pregnancy-test-result#sthash.Gg2BbCk3.dpuf

With the pregnancy test being 5 days away, I am struggling with whether or not to disclose the results of the pregnancy test right away and who to disclose them to. I feel cruel holding back the information from anyone that has been following our journey.  I don't want to tell too many people. I have just heard of so many unfortunate things happen in early pregnancy, but really bad things can happen whether you are in the early part of your pregnancy or the later part of your pregnancy. We are definitely going to tell immediate family and close friends...for sure. I think I am going to make my blog private so that way I can share the news with all of my readers (blogger friends) that have been following along with what we've been going thru. If we are pregnant, I really don't want to miss out on the big reveal on Facebook and what not. I want to stage a cute photo to announce our pregnancy, but I want to make sure that the pregnancy is stable before doing that and I don't want to leave you all in suspense until then. The verdict is that you guys will know (as long as you follow my blog). :)

Have a wonderful rest of your Wednesday!

Monday, October 28, 2013

WARNING: Cuteness Overload

I really do have two of the cutest nephews ever! :)

Lukas

Nate
I hope I can give them one or two cousins next year. :)

Oh...and by the way...I am in love with the photo editing app called A Beautiful Mess. I really enjoyed the looks of a fellow bloggers pictures, so I finally asked her what she uses. Now I get to spice up my pictures too! ;)

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Embryo Transfer x2

This morning was our 5-day embryo transfer. We were told to get to the clinic at 6am. We left the house at 4am to get to the clinic that is on the north side of Chicago. We had no idea how traffic was going to be, so we left WAY early. We arrived at 5:10am. Once we saw another couple walk into the building at 5:45, we followed. We signed paperwork and then waited in the waiting room for about 30 minutes. Then we were taken back to the area where I change and we waited some more. Picture time! :)

Back again! Ready to go!

Oreos! The breakfast of champions!

The happy couple! :)

After they took my blood pressure the doctor came in. We talked about how many embryos we have. We had 5 that were high quality, 3 that were not as developed, and 2 that stopped developing (or something like that). We got to see pictures of some of our little embies! :) We will find out next week how many will be frozen. We are thinking at most 6.

This is a picture of some of our embryos. So cool. :)
 They require you to have a full bladder, but I could not handle it anymore so I asked my doctor if I had time to go to the bathroom and then chug some more water. He said that that was fine. He said that he can get the embryos in with or without a full bladder. He said that it's the nurses that are strict on that and that he has learned to never disagree with a nurse. :) Then at 7:40, they took me back. I was told that the transfer is comparable to an IUI. It is, but I didn't feel a thing. Well, I felt the speculum. I did not feel the catheter at all. It took less than 5 minutes and then I was done. He said that the embryos went right into the pocket that they needed to go into. They handed me the lid to the petri dish and I headed back to where Mike was.

My last name got rubbed off, but this is pretty neat to have!

They took my blood pressure and I was good to go! I was out of there by 8am!

I am really pleased with how easy this process has been for me. I know that everyone has a different experience, and from reading others experiences, I feel that mine was easy peasy! I actually think that it has been a pretty neat experience. I never thought that our issues conceiving would come to this. It has been quite the experience. Yes, I wish that we could have conceived naturally, but it's just not in the cards for some couples. I can say that I sure am grateful for science.

Now the waiting game begins. The pregnancy test is scheduled for November 4th at 6am. I was curious of what happens between now and then, so I found a chart that explains:

5-Day Transfer
Days Past
Transfer (DPT)
Embryo Development
One The blastocyst begins to hatch out of its shell
Two The blastocyst continues to hatch out of its shell and begins to attach itself to the uterus
Three The blastocyst attaches deeper into the uterine lining, beginning implantation
Four Implantation continues
Five Implantation is complete, cells that will eventually become the placenta and fetus have begun to develop
Six Human chorionic gonadotropin (hCG) starts to enter the blood stream
Seven Fetal development continues and hCG continues to be secreted
Eight Fetal development continues and hCG continues to be secreted
Nine Levels of hCG are now high enough to detect a pregnancy

I hope you all have a fabulous rest of your weekend! I am pretty much laying low for the next three days per doctors orders. It's going to be a perfect time to catch up on blogs! :)

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

IVF #1 Egg Retrieval

Mike and I went in on Monday morning for the egg retrieval. I was pretty nervous. I was relieved to find out that Mike could be with me almost the whole time (minus when I was in the operating room). It was so nice having him there with me. He was so sweet and comforting. When they were putting the IV needle in my arm, he hovered over me and blocked my view from the needle. He also kissed the top of my head and forehead. He's so sweet. The nurse told me that she can tell how much he loves me. When they were about to take me back he asked the nurse if that would be the last time that he would see me before the procedure because he wanted to make sure to give me a hug/kiss and wish me luck. She said that she was glad that she didn't have to TELL him to do those things. He is so incredibly thoughtful. I am so lucky to have him.

After the procedure I wasn't in much pain and I'm still not. I must have a high pain tolerance. Thank God!

Here are some pics from the retrieval day:

Dressed and ready to go!
1st and 2nd IV attempt! Ouch!

Coming out of La La Land!
The lab called yesterday morning to say that out of 23 retrieved eggs, only 10 were mature and fertilized....which is still really pretty good. I guess when they measure during the ultrasounds, it isn't always accurate. He said that I am a good candidate for the 5-day embryo transfer. I will hear from them tomorrow morning to find out if I have to go in then for the 3-day or if we can indeed come in on Saturday for the 5-day. I am hoping for Saturday. Then I only have to miss one day of work (Monday).

Results of the 2nd IV Attempt! :/
 See the picture above. This was the worst part of the whole experience. :/ I can't really complain! :)

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Fall at Camp Nawakwa

Like I have mentioned in past posts, my husband's family spends time at a YMCA family camp in the northwoods of Wisconsin every summer in July. Some go for a few days, a week, a couple weeks, or even a month. They have been going here since the 1950's. It is a gorgeous place. We have gone most summers since we have been together. This year we decided to skip our yearly fall walk at Starved Rock State Park and go back to camp (we were just there 3 months ago). There is a north and south camp and we stay at south camp. We were the only ones in south camp. It was awesome during the day and extremely eerie at night. We got to stay in the Island cabin that connects to land by a foot bridge. There is a gate on the foot bridge to keep the dogs in. They got to run free all weekend. We got there at about 1am on Saturday and left at 10am on Monday. The weather was beautiful and we enjoyed ourselves thoroughly. We rented a motor boat and took it out on the lake for pictures both days. We enjoyed time around the fire, reading, and playing games. It was the perfect fall trip that I wouldn't mind making into a tradition with our future children. We had such a good time that we may even book it for next year. Here are a few pictures from our trip:








If you are interested in seeing more, go here: Fall at Camp Nawakwa 2013

In IVF news, I went in for my baseline labs on Friday morning. I started 200 units of Follistim on Sunday night and return to the clinic tomorrow morning for labs and an ultrasound. Next week will be the egg retrieval and embryo transfer. I am so extremely excited. I feel like we are getting so close. I am trying not to get my hopes up too much because of all of the negative outcomes or chemical pregnancies that I have read about in others blogs. I can only hope and pray that we are successful.

In job news, I left my part time job working before and after school care on Thursday. I was a little sad, but only got teary-eyed when the middle school girl, Lauryn, hugged me when she went home in the afternoon. Today was my last day at my other part time job as an instructional aide in a kindergarten classroom. I cried. I cried a lot. They made me a book and thanked me for helping to make them smarter and they told me that they will miss me and that they love me. I think I cried for the last 5 minutes at work and for 25 minutes after that. They are so cute and I am going to miss them so much. I will also miss the staff at that school. I have really felt like a part of the family for the last year. I will miss that place tremendously. Tomorrow I start at the junior high. This should be interesting. ;)

Hope all is well with everyone else! Have a fabulous week!

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Sunshine Award

I am honored to have been nominated for the Sunshine Award by Teresa at Where the *Bleep* is Our Stork? The award goes to those writers whose posts brighten the days of fellow bloggers/readers. Thanks, Teresa! It makes me happy to know that I brighten your day! :)

The Rules:
1. Include the Sunshine Award icon in your post.
2. Link to the person who nominated you.
3. Answer 10 questions about yourself.
4. Nominate 10 bloggers to receive the award.
5. Link your nominees and let them know they've been nominated.


Teresa's Questions:
1. Shaken or stirred? I mainly drink Mike's Hard Lemonade, wine, or margaritas.
2. What is the greatest movie from the past year? I don't think that I've seen any movies this year that I feel that strongly about.
3. Would you ever consider writing your own book? Not really. I am not a good writer. No one would want to read my book. ;)
4. Would you rather have dog's ears or hawk's eyes? Well, I'm not sure about dog's ears. Every time we are watching a sport on TV and a whistle is blown, my male dog jumps off the couch and runs to the bedroom. Noises like that really seem to bother his ears. I'll go with hawk's eyes.
5. What's your favorite season and why? My favorite season is fall. I love the changing colors of the leaves, sitting around fires, and wearing comfy sweatshirts. I love burning the pumpkin scented candles from Bed Bath and Beyond. They smell up my house with delicious scents.
6. Have you ever hated loving someone? Not really.
7. Do you have any strange habits? None that I can think of. I'm sure my husband can come up with some though. ;)
8. Why do people say laughter is the best medicine? If there is laughter in your life, you will always be happy. One thing that attracted me to my husband was his personality. He always makes me laugh or smile.
9. What do you think is the color for happiness? I think the colors of the rainbow are the colors for happiness.  Rainbows make me smile. :)
10. What will you teach your children? (what values, beliefs, hobbies, skills, etc.) I will teach my children to be independent and to think for themselves. To never be a follower...to be a leader. I will give my children the option to be in sports or any extra curricular activities. I just hope they have Mike's athletic abilities. :)

My Nominees: 
(The first 3 have already been nominated by others, but I want to acknowledge them as well. I enjoy reading all of these ladies blogs and appreciate their support on my blog.)
5. Amie at Is It Time Yet?
6. Jenn at Tricky & Peep
9. Caroline at In Due Time

My questions:
1. What's your favorite TV show of all time?
2. What is your dream vacation?
3. Is there anything that you would change about yourself?
4. What is your idea of a fun/perfect night? Do you like to go out or stay in?
5. What is your favorite book, series, or author that you have ever read?
6. If you could go back in time and change your career path, would you?
7. If you could move anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?
8. What are your favorite hobbies? What are you good at?
9. What is your dream car?
10. What kind of activities are currently on your "bucket list"?



Saturday, October 5, 2013

IVF Cycle, New Job, and Mini Vacay Plans

I had to go in for blood work yesterday morning and to talk with my nurse about my medications and timeline. It sounds like my last night to take BCP is tomorrow night. They will let me know for sure on Monday and also tell me what I am taking next and when I am taking it. I will then go in on Friday morning for baseline labs. It sounds like the egg retrieval will be the 21st-23rd and the embryo transfer will be the 24th or 25th. I am really hoping that this works! We are so ready to start our family!

On the job front: I had mentioned before that I got a call from the principal at our local junior high school that wanted to know if I was interested in a full time instructional aide position at his school. Last time I posted, I wasn't sure if I got the job or if he wanted to interview with me. At the time that I talked to him, he had only told me that I would be hearing from him or from the Special Education department. So, after a week of not hearing from either, I emailed him. He got back to me to tell me that the job is mine and that once it is approved at the school board meeting on the 15th, then he would contact me to tell me when I would start. So, after much drama with my boss at the YMCA for before and after school care, I gave my two weeks notice and my last day is this Thursday. Hooray. I am so glad to not have to deal with her anymore. My principal at my other job and the teacher that I work with are awesome. They hate to see me go, but they understand that a full time gig and benefits is very important to have. I hate to leave that school and the kindergartners. I really feel like I am a part of the team at that school. I can only hope that I am as comfortable and as happy at the new school as I am at my current school.

MINI VACATION: I am really looking forward to the extended weekend coming up. My husband and I decided to rent a cabin in northern Wisconsin (at Camp Nawakwa) for Columbus Day weekend. We are going to the same place that we spend a week at in July every year. This time we are renting the cabin that his aunt and uncle get. It is a large (three bedroom) cabin on an island. We are getting it for 3 nights for $275 (with the pet fee). We finally get to see what camp looks like with fall colors. The best thing about this place is that the dogs get to run free around the island. There is a foot bridge that connects us to land, but there is a gate to keep the dogs in. We are mainly going to just relax, but I have a lot planned in my mind. We are going to canoe, go for a walk and enjoy the fall colors, carve pumpkins, bake the seeds, I'm going to bake an apple pie, and we are going to do a lot of reading and just plain enjoy each others company. One of the best features of camp are the stars. I look forward to laying on the foot bridge or dock and star gazing with my honey. I also look forward to spending time around the fire and having some drinks and chillaxin'. It is a long drive (13 hour round trip) for just an extended weekend, but we so need this and it will be wonderful. Here is a peak at where we are staying from the Camp Nawakwa website. I will post pics when we get back. :)


Have a great week, everyone! TTYL!