Sunday, April 14, 2013

IUI #3 = BFN

Friday morning I went in for my pregnancy test. After that I headed home and took a two hour nap. I haven't been sleeping really well lately, so it was a much needed nap. When I woke up I got ready and headed to Hopkins Park, IL (Pembroke Township). I had been invited to tour the town and school by the superintendent after going to a job fair in February where I met her. In case you don't know, I graduated last year with my degree in Elementary Education. I have been searching for a teaching job since. I lucked out and got a part-time aide position at a school nearby, but I need a full-time job and I REALLY want to teach! Back to the story....so this town is VERY poor. Oprah did a story on it years ago called Invisible Lives. The town is about 30 minutes from me. Touring the town reminded me of Mexico. A lot. When we got back to the school they fed us and showed a little PowerPoint and talked about their school and community. Then we got a tour of the building that serves Pre-K thru 8th grade. I really like the fact that the superintendent is so focused on getting the students involved in the community and the community involved in the school. It is actually pretty neat. I kinda liked it there. I wouldn't mind working there. It also helps that I have a college friend that works there. I am hoping that there is an opening and I at least get an interview. I need the practice.

On the way home I got a call from the clinic saying that my test came back negative. The nurse was so nice and told me that if I need anything or have any questions, to not hesitate to call her back. She was so sweet. I felt myself start to tear up as I hung up the phone. I told myself "DO NOT CRY" and I held it together pretty well. Later that night I was super bummed and was a complete bitch to my husband...who didn't deserve it. We are better now. That night Mike didn't feel like going to the gym and I was feeling down, so we skipped it. The next day it felt good to get my frustrations out at the gym. I really think that exercising is helping with the infertility stress. Our "next step" appointment has been moved to April 29th, so I am taking the month off. Time to focus on making my body healthy!

On that note, we have been to the gym 9 out of the last 11 days. I do 60 minutes of cardio each time. I am feeling good and am down 3 pounds. :)

4 comments:

Infertile625 said...

I'm sorry Hun. I am going to call my nurse in the morning to find out what next. I think we'll just do another IUI clomid starting day 3 this time. Not too sure. I guess I'm glad AF showed early if I was getting a BFN anyway!

Aubrey said...

I'm sorry about your BFN... I totally know how it feels to get that call
:( Glad that you've been keeping yourself busy and getting your aggressio out at the gym. xoxo

Amie said...

I am so sorry, I thought for sure this would be the one for you :( Prayers on the possible new job, and sounds like you are doing great on the exercising :)

Kailey Birkeland said...

I'm so sorry to hear that it was negative. It sounds like you have some things to keep busy with over the next month. Good for you!
I'm a third grade teacher! Yay for teaching!